Sunday, August 31, 2008

it's very untimely

To confront old issues(1), for three hours(2) in the middle of all these work(3) in these crucial times(4).
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(1) - that which ive thought im so over and done with.
(2) - during a meeting which i promised (at least to myself) to keep professional
(3) - with everything that's in my hands
(4) - with all the deadlines coming within the next two weeks.

Why do I have to fall - be reminded of the past, and be reminded that the pain still lingers...
...only to pick up myself again - because I have to and that I dont even have the right to sulk, because many people are again counting on my strength. And that I have to recover on my own.
...at the soonest possible time - because of BIG and URGENT needs.

Why does the wound have to resurface in these crucial times when I have to be reminded of my strength?

To those whom I work with, I promise (and I'll try hard) to be well. But please understand that with what just happened I guess it is now when I really need your support.

More than ever.

Friday, August 29, 2008

love is rational pala ha!

Break muna sa buhay-becaria.

Pagbigyan na ako't minsan lang naman ako maging sexist, hehe. Para talaga ito sa mga babae, lalo na sa mga philo-girls.

Madalas tayong biktima ng mga soap operas na kung saan mas determinado ang mga babae sa kung anumang gusto nila. Perhaps, I am stereotyping; but I find their male counterparts too silent for what they desire. To think, guys aren't really introverts. But it's strange on why guys in love stories cant be depicted the way they were in Braveheart, the Ocean's 11,12,13 (magbilang tayo...), Catch me if you can; and even in semi-mushy films like Dead Poets' Society, Patch Adams, etc. Where's the natural arrogance and tenacity?

Dalawang rason lang ang naiisip ko kung bakit tahimik ang isang lalake sa mga panahong alam niyang dapat siyang magsalita: di siya sigurado o nagpapaubaya lang. May mga panahong kagalang-galang ang katahimikan, pero minsan nagiging signos rin ito ng kawalan ng tadyang.

Nakakabilib, pero nakakainis rin makakita ng isang babaeng lumalaban, kasi ito lang ang paraan para makuha ang gusto niya. Applicable ba ito sa usaping love? Ewan ko. Di ko sigurado. May mga pagkakataon naman kasing di kailangan makipaglaban eh. Kailangan mo lang magmahal. Yun lang. Palagay ko, eto ang pinakamagandang resolusyon para sa mga babaeng minalas na umibig at umiibig dun sa mga "tahimik".

Tumatakbo ang prinsipyong ito sa kasabihang "walang laban kung wala namang dapat ipaglaban". Ewan ko na naman. Pwede naman kasing magmahal maski hindi umaangkin eh (enter the concept of "liberating love"! haha) Yung tamang pagkilala lang. Palagay ko sapat na yung pagmamahal para sa mga taong binuo na ang sarili nila bago mo pa man sila nakilala. Tama na yung suporta lalo na't isa yung "binuo" nila sa mga inibig mo. May mga pagkakataon lang talagang hindi mo kailangan kunin yung mga taong alam mong buong buhay mong maappreciate.

Ngayon naman, kapag sinabihan kang ikaw ang bubuo sa kanya -- nakakakilig pero ewan ko na naman -- alam ng lahat ng marunong mag-isip na wala kang pwedeng ibigay na makakakumpleto. Ang suporta ay isang uri ng pakikisabay, kumbaga may boses pa rin ang mang-aawit maski walang tugtog. Kung di maganda ang boses kung walang tugtog, di iyon problema nung tugtog. Kung sakali mang di niya kayang mabuo ang sarili ng wala ikaw, alalahaning di ka isang pader. Kaya siguro tahimik kasi wala syang anumang balak dahil ni mangarap di niya kayang gawin.

Walang mali na magkagusto. Pero palagay ko'y kailangan mag-ingat ng bawat babae. Walang masama sa pagmamahal, pero may paraan para ipakita ito nang hindi nilalaglag ang sarili. Ewan ko. Naranasan ko nang lumaban, pero minalas akong iwan ito nang hindi natatapos. Para akong napagod sa wala. Pero hindi naman siguro ibig sabihin nito'y di ko na kayang tumaya sa mga susunod na pagkakataon. Nabigyan lang ako ng mga importanteng leksyon.

Mahalagang magsimula ang kwento ng pag-ibig sa iyong sarili. Sa love, walang sisihan. Pero maski nagmula sa iyo, dapat walang pilitan. (Oo, para ito sa mga babae -- bahagi mo ang paghihintay) Siguro, pwede namang magpahiwatig - sa mga makakahulugang ngiti, sa pagiging mabait -- pero hindi mo papel ang panliligaw. Kapag na di na matiis at maipit ang feelings, pwede naman siguro magtapat - pero isa iyong sugal! Sukat iyon ng katapangan. Wag umibig para mabalikan -- kung lalampas ka ng kaunti, gawin iyon para lang sa pagbibigay. Sabi nga ni Sir Bong - pag nagmahal ka, okay na yun; pag minahal ka rin, bonus na yun.

Isa pa, yung unang ugali ng taong mamahalin ang kailangang tanggapin kapag nagmamahal. Kung ayaw mo ng sakit ng ulo, wag kang tumaya para dun sa mga alam mong may dapat pang baguhin - lalung-lalo kung alam mong ikaw ang magiging dahilan ng kanyang pagbabago. Hindi nagmamahal ang isang tao para maging naglalakad na rehab center.

Ang pagmamahal ay isang pagsuko ng pride, pero hindi ng dignidad.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

an interesting church news...

... which will probably affect my paper. (haha) Goodluck, sana hanggang liturgy lang ito.


Permalink: http://www.zenit.org/article-23414?l=english

Vatican Says "Yahweh" Not to Be Pronounced


Calls on Practice Used by 1st Christians


WASHINGTON, D.C., AUG. 19, 2008 (Zenit.org).- A note from the Vatican has reiterated a directive that the name of God revealed in the tetragrammaton YHWH is not to be pronounced in Catholic liturgy.

Bishop Arthur Serratelli, chairman of the U.S. bishops' Committee on Divine Worship, in a note informing prelates of the Vatican directive, said the indications "do not force any changes to official liturgical texts," but might cause "some impact on the use of particular pieces of liturgical music in our country as well as in the composition of variable texts such as the general intercessions for the celebration of the Mass and the other sacraments."

Commonly used songs with phrases such as "Yahweh, I know you are near," will need to be modified.

The June 29 Vatican message, from the Congregation for Divine Worship and the Sacraments, clarified that the name of God revealed in YHWH was not pronounced by the first Christians, following the tradition already in use.

It explained: "The venerable biblical tradition of sacred Scripture, known as the Old Testament, displays a series of divine appellations, among which is the sacred name of God revealed in a tetragrammaton YHWH -- hwhw. As an expression of the infinite greatness and majesty of God, it was held to be unpronounceable and hence was replaced during the reading of sacred Scripture by means of the use of an alternate name: 'Adonai,' which means 'Lord.'

"The Greek translation of the Old Testament, the so called Septuagint, dating back to the last centuries prior to the Christian era, had regularly rendered the Hebrew tetragrammaton with the Greek word Kyrios, which means 'Lord.' Since the text of the Septuagint constituted the Bible of the first generation of Greek speaking Christians, in which language all the books of the New Testament were also written, these Christians, too, from the beginning never pronounced the divine tetragrammaton."

Theology

The Vatican goes on to note that this practice had "important implications" for New Testament Christology.

"When in fact, St. Paul, with regard to the crucifixion, writes that 'God has highly exalted him and bestowed on him the name which is above every name" (Phil 2:9), he does not mean any other name than 'Lord,' for he continues by saying, 'and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord' (Phil 2:11; cf. Isaiah 42:8: 'I am the Lord; that is my name')," the Vatican note explained.

"The attribution of this title to the risen Christ corresponds exactly to the proclamation of his divinity," it continued. "The title in fact becomes interchangeable between the God of Israel and the Messiah of the Christian faith, even though it is not in fact one of the titles used for the Messiah of Israel."

"Avoiding pronouncing the tetragrammaton of the name of God on the part of the Church has therefore its own grounds," the Vatican concluded. "Apart from a motive of a purely philogical order, there is also that of remaining faithful to the Church's tradition, from the beginning, that the sacred tetragrammaton was never pronounced in the Christian context, nor translated into any of the languages into which the Bible was translated."

what philosophers do

Fr. Ranie Aquino writes about what's written all over my face since July.
Published 25 August 2008 at the Manila Standard Today.


WHAT PHILOSOPHERS DO

By Fr. Ranhilio Callangan Aquino

COMIUCAP is the acronym for “Conference Mondiale des Institutions Universitaires Catholiques de Philosophie”—The World Conference of Catholic University Institutions of Philosophy. It is meeting in Manila on Sept. 11 to 13. It is certainly a global event for philosophers, philosophy professors, students and dabblers. Not much is heard about it because, in the Philippines, those who bother about philosophy in more than a casual manner may very well qualify to be on the “endangered list.” Dr. Leovino Garcia, long a prominent figure in philosophy in our own part of the world and dean of the Loyola Schools at Ateneo de Manila University until recently, is the conference organizer. Jean Luc Marion, a revered name in the contemporary philosophical study of religion, will be the main plenary lecturer. Dr. Alfredo Co of the University of Santo Tomas will also be a plenary speaker. I will read a paper for one of the workshop sessions.

So what is this? A gathering of idle chatterers? It is the great misfortune of philosophy to be constantly put to work but seldom recognized for what it is. For some time, the sway that science and technology enjoyed over the discourse not only of academe but of the everyday world seemed to have banished philosophy to the fringes of worthwhile human concerns. Philosophers did not produce as scientists and mechanics did, therefore, they had little, if anything at all, to contribute to humankind. But we have learned better, I hope, and there has been disenchantment with science. Not that we do not need it, but that we realize its limits and the fact that it is not self-validating. Astounding developments have allowed the cloning of higher and higher orders of animalia. Cloning a human being seems to be just around the corner. But should we, ought we? It does not seem to belong to the province of science to provide an answer to such a threshold question.

There are different ways philosophers describe what it is they do. For some time, Aristotle’s distinction between proximate and ultimate causes seemed to offer a plausible ground for philosophizing. Pushing inquiry to its furthest limits in respect of anything at all—this seems to have been the insight underlying Aristotle’s claim of territory for philosophy: The ultimate causes and principles of things. We have not entirely rid ourselves of Aristotle’s spell, nor does it seem desirable to do so. Paleontologists and anthropologists have given us the progression of hominid species. At the end of the procession of fossil finds and genealogical trees, one is justified in asking: When did the human person first make his appearance? Immediately, the question strikes a different key and compels the thinker to shift gears. This is no longer a question to which an answer can be given by a closer examination of bones and artifacts. It is a question of what used to be called “the essence” of what it is to be human. What makes one human? Ayer once usefully suggested that unlike the scientist whose concern it is to unearth data, the philosopher is called upon to describe the facts made available. Do you call this interesting biped that asks questions, builds sophisticated habitation, ornaments and paints himself, and enters into interesting relations with others human or not? That is not a question that can be answered by more data. It is a question that calls on you to describe the data at hand.

Understood this way, it is not difficult to arrive at the realization that there is in fact so much philosophy that we do without acknowledging that we are doing it—and this is exactly why things can turn bad. If there is anything that can make a claim to global recognition, it is human rights. But what is it that makes the human person worthy of respect? More concretely, what are these and why should they be human rights? If bold claims are made for human rights, then quite obviously these questions cannot go unanswered, and such nebulous concepts as “inherent dignity” will not be left unexamined.

Talk to any youngster today about promiscuity, for example, as wrong and you will get the retort: “What is wrong to you may be right for me.” You Light Up My Life puts the philosophical position of many of today’s youngsters so succinctly: “It can’t be wrong if it feels so right.” To many, this is a good posture. What it is in fact is some form of relativism that is at best a highly questionable philosophical posture. At one time in my teaching career, one student complained that philosophy was abstract. I had to give him the disappointing answer that it was meant to be abstract and it is purposely abstract! That is of course no reason for a teacher of philosophy to turn students off by being deliberately incomprehensible—and this happens quite often when the teacher has not himself done good philosophy. He passes his own confusion to his students. But philosophy is in fact eminently practical in the sense that the way we live of our lives is a consequence of the philosophical positions we take. Loving another person unselfishly rests on the philosophical premise that it is meaningful and fulfilling to love. And it is philosophical reflection likewise that spurs us to ask whether it is in fact love with which I encounter the other, or one of its counterfeits. In fact, even the movement that goes by the moniker “postmodernism” has a significant social dimension to it. Whatever may be said against the articulations of its iconic figures, the distrust for what are called “meta-narratives” or pretensions at comprehensive accounts is in fact born of the recognition that putting on airs at giving an explanation for all things marginalized many others who had other explanations. The restiveness with which minorities, whether ethnic or religious, for example, make their presence felt is a consequence of the canonization of narratives and the confinement of others to the margins.

Philosophy is the reflective moment of humankind. It is that which allows us to distance ourselves from what we do and what we achieve. It is much-needed self-criticism. The passion for justice is vacuous without a thoughtful consideration of what justice is and what demands it makes. Similarly, in the philosophy of the law, while we have always believed that crime must be punished, it is worth our while asking how inflicting some detriment upon the offender—such as a loss of freedom or property (and in jurisdictions that still execute—life) makes society and life in society any better. I am not saying it does not. I only insist that the question should be raised and critically answered.

There is another tradition to philosophy—many times known as the analytic tradition. What it demands is that we be responsible about the terms we use and that we be able to give a logical account of the way we use them. If you label philosophy as “useless” for example, then you must be prepared with a logical account of what is “useful” and how philosophy fails this test.

It is a meeting of people with such concerns that will take place this September.




Wednesday, August 13, 2008

oh shucks

here's to another eight days of dead-serious labor.

my 2-days of anxiety just ended after receiving an email that confirmed something major. perhaps the real reason why i had a li'l alcohol this evening is to get rid of the bad feeling when rejected or when tasked to carry on with something that i have done while overcoming a saturday-spree hangover (aside from the fact that i love and am so indebted to the one who encouraged me to do it, as in).

i just knew that i need alcohol before i check my email when i get home.

and yes, i got home at 1am after listening to 2 sets by noel cabangon and 2 bottles of beer. :) i checked my mail, and i've received my much awaited email. positive.

i really think i need a study leave.


Friday, August 08, 2008

Feast Day Post

Let's go to the memory lane.

Batchmates from Dominican College San Juan since early elementary must be familiar about this song:

At the time of John Lackland, over England was the king
Dominic was in the backland fighting sin like anything.

Dominic oh Dominic! Over the land he plods along
And sings a little song
Never looking for reward, he just talks about the Lord
He just talks about the Lord.

that goes with this tune:


This song was the usual "package deal" of Amang Santo Domingo whenever we celebrate the Veritas Week. I still can remember how we were taught of this song (way back in Grade Four) by two nuns who got upset because of our noise. One of those nuns was Sr. Felicitas Toledo, who happened to be our Christian Living teacher and turned out to be one of my close friends in CRMSD. (anu na kayang nangyari dun? hehe)

I was reminded of the song because Father Rector (dela Rosa) mentioned of a song "Dominic" that topped the Billboard charts during the 1960s was composed by Jeanine Deckers, an ex-Dominican who became controversial because of her stand on contraception. This composer is said to have committed suicide in the 80s. She is known to the public as Soeur Soirire.

Curiosity led me to a little online research, and voila - sabi na nga ba. The song was originally in French (Dominique nique nique), although it was translated into English as how it was performed by Debbie Robinson in the old film The Singing Nun.

What happened to Jeanine Deckers was tragic. Read: http://learning2share.blogspot.com/2008/09/singing-nun-dominique-1982.html

Although this post is sad for a very happy day (walang pasok eh! hehe), let me greet all my fellows (dominicans, thomasians) a happy feast day.


Friday, August 01, 2008

familiar faces

i've found an interesting website while developing a visual aid in philo of art.

http://www.vernix.org/marcel/people/

nice. :)