Thursday, January 31, 2008

just counting...

There are four important projects that im currently juggling in my hands: the quadricentennial philosophy project, teaching (which consists of 2 major subjects: sp qq in episte, existentialism; and logic - backlogs!), PAP work and my dissertation.

I just got through making and delivering a paper for intersections (that lit-conference), so yesterday FOUR was FIVE.

If I am to add my lessons at alliance francaise (they did not allow me to drop), FOUR will become FIVE. And oh, I forgot about the saturday Levinas class, so I guess I should make it SIX.

But oh, I forgot about my thesis advisees. They will be defending this february. Make it then SEVEN.

And they are all long-term tasks; semester-long at the very least.

<> @__@ Bring it on.

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

kritike.org's 2nd ish

...is finally out. hit: www.kritike.org to read new articles on philosophy.


Friday, January 25, 2008

father dean's wisdom

unforgettable quips by fr. enrico gonzales from the recently held seminar on philosophy (the nexus of ethics and moral theology)

"there is a big difference when you say that a relation is substantial. it's as thick as the soup that siena sisters serve to me in their convent. masustansya."

philosophers must think out of the box. sometimes there are disjunctive things that you can actually take as conjunctive, just like faith and reason, mary's virginity and motherhood -- you just have to think out of the box.

ethics that focuses on law leads to the finding of ways on how to bend it.

"I dont believe in the Apostle's Creed, I believe in God, the Father Almighty, Creator of heaven and earth. I believe in Jesus Christ..." (onga naman. hehe)

conscience should have a face. ang konsensyang walang mukha, ay sa taong walang hiya (oo nga ano? that's so levinasian.)

Saturday, January 19, 2008

Honti-talks from Padre Roque and Fr. Mano

Thanks ttitopao for posting this at the BP Forums, i felt like i need to post them here because that a mentor (Padre Roque) and a musical inspiration (Fr. Mano) were the ones who wrote these essays. Indeed, Fr. Honti's ways are edifying.

REMEMBERING FR. HONTI
Fr. Roque Ferriols, SJ
Oratory of St. Ignatius, Loyola House of Studies
January 15, 2008

"He loved to sing. He loved to talk. He loved to laugh. Towards the end of his life, he could no longer sing. He could no longer talk. But he still laughed."

In the Society of Jesus there are certain people who appear and disappear in your life – depending on the vagaries of the assignments you receive. You begin to take it for granted that they will always be near. They are like fixed stars that are so present that you do not notice them. Whey they suddenly pass away you realize that you have lost a friend.

The early Jesuits referred to themselves as a company of friends in the Lord. In his quiet loyal way, Father Eddie was – is a friend in the Lord to all of us. Memories of Father Eddie are now flooding my mind and I will share a few of them.

Father Eddie, Father Jess Diaz and I took our first year theology in St. Mary’s, Kansas. There was a steep slope in the Theologate golf course. Eddie was one of the few brave souls that learned to ski on that slope. I remember seeing him coming in, his face red from the cold raw air. I admired his courage but was unable to imitate it.

Years later we were in Baguio for a province retreat. I had to be rushed to the hospital for emergency surgery. Eddie accompanied me. Before I was wheeled in the operating room, I asked him to hear my confession. Across the years, I remember his words of consolation and I am grateful for them.

St. Augustine says that to sing is to pray twice. Eddies has filled our churches with people who pray twice. They love to pray singing melodies composed by Fr. Eddie. Eddie’s music is in the style of Ilonggo folk music. He loved the music. He loved the people who created the music. He learned from their music and spread their style throughout the world.

Eddie loved to talked, he loved to sing, and he loved to laugh. In the last years of his life he could not sing, he could not talk. All he could pronounce were a few words, but he could still laugh.

And he lived life with zest. He communicated animatedly using the few words he could pronounce and gestures. He composed music using a computer, and he laughed. He so alive and cheerful that we sometimes failed to notice, the courage with which he embraced life. He was cheerful. He spread his cheerfulness to the people he lived with. That is the word I will use to describe Eddie: Courage.

He spent time everyday praying before the Blessed Sacrament, that was the source of his courage. He loved to live life with joy at a time when physical energy to him was in diminishment and inspired courage in others.

We thank God for giving us Eddie as brother and friend.



Fr. Honti: A Most Sublime Song to God
Fr. Manoling V. Francisco, S.J.
January 16, 2008

Sometimes the dearer a person is to you, the more difficult it is to speak about him or her. This is precisely what I feel now trying to condense into a few hundred words the immeasurable significance of Fr. Honti for all of us...


Gentle Spirit.

Fr. Honti was a gentle spirit. His brother Alex admits that he and his brothers bullied little Eddie and got him into trouble with their Mama. Fr. Revs attests that Fr. Honti was, like the Blessed Virgin Mary, born without original sin.

In 1991, Fr. Honti suffered his first stroke, which paralyzed his right hand and impaired his speech. Nonetheless, Fr. Honti’s mind remained lucid, spirit indomitable. Fr. Herb Schneider tells me that even after his stroke, Fr. Honti would hie away with Fr. Herb, Fr. Calderone, Fr. Pat Giordano, Fr. Roger Champoux to a beach house in Matuod, not so much to pray or recollect, but to play bridge. And despite his stroke, Fr. Honti remained a top notch bridge player.

Having a lucid mind, Fr. Honti, despite speech therapy, had been unable to express himself beyond “Ok”, which he would utter with his endearing laughter and “the Lord be with you,” which he would agonizingly enunciate. It certainly must have been frustrating for him to have a clear and active mind, yet not be able to express his thoughts and sentiments. And yet, not once have I seen Fr. Honti cranky or depressed.

Every now and then, Fr. Honti would visit me in the Jesuit Music Ministry Office and we would play a game of charades. He would grunt and lift his hand, and I knew he wanted me to do something for him. One afternoon, as he entered our office, I asked him, “Fr., man or woman?” He replied, “Woman.” To which I further asked, “Sister or lay?” “Sister,” he answered. Then I enumerated all the religious congregations for women I could think of: “RVM, Cenacle, FMM, RA, RGS, MMS…” “MMS,” he repeated and smiled. Whew, but that was only the first part of the game, because the next part required me to enumerate all the MMS sisters I knew. So finally, we reached a union of minds, “Sr. Vicky at EAPI!” Finally, I identified the person he wanted me to contact. But then, the last part of the game was the most difficult. “So, Fr., what about Sr. Vicky?” He grunted, raised his hands and expected me to read his mind. “Do you want me to invite her to LHS for a meal?” He shook his head. “Oh, maybe you want me o invite her to watch a concert with you?” Then he smiled from ear to ear.

But sometimes, despite our long and tedious game, I would not be able to decipher what he had in mind. He would scratch his head and I would feel so bad. “Fr. Honti, let’s do it all over again.” But he would motion me and signal me not to fret and he would console me with a single word, “Ok,” short for “That’s alright.” And he would walk out of our office with nary a sign of frustration or desolation.

Sabi nga ni Pina Asiatico, “Si Fr. Honti, hindi yan marunong magalit.”


Humble Genius.

Secondly, Fr. Honti was a humble genius. Fr. Revs writes:

He was always very gifted: not only in composing music, but in putting together things like electric organs, utility gadgets, etc., developing and printing photographic films, playing chess or playing the accordion and the organ; solving crossword puzzles; conceptualizing scholastic philosophy and theology; getting top marks in IQ tests, etc.”

To which Larphy, Pilar Ignacio, long-time accompanist of Fr. Honti adds: once, as the curtains were about to be drawn to signal the start of the concert, Fr. Honti continued to hover above the piano, tuning the strings. And to which Rowena, registrar of LST, validates: “Siya lang yung dean ng LST na hindi nakasubsob ang mukha sa mga libro at papeles, kundi nagkukumpune ng tape recorder at ng radio.”

Despite his many skills and talents, Fr. Honti never called attention to his giftedness. Unlike other artists who become overly protective of their works, Fr. Honti remained detached from his songs. Larphy narrates:

Fr. Honti and I have been collaborators since we started having concerts in 1974. Once when we were teaching the Barangka choir one of his new compositions, they could not get the notes right no matter how many times we practiced. What Fr. Honti did was to change the notes according to how the choir sang it. He said that if the choir didn't get it, chances are the general public wouldn't be able to sing it the way the notes were. So he followed the choir.

Despite the genius that he was, Fr. Honti remained unassuming and self-effacing. Tita Remy Ignacio remembers Fr. Honti serving quietly, bearing difficulties, and never calling attention to himself.

Twenty-seven years ago, Fr. Honti requested Tita Remy to chaperone 35 teen-agers from Pansol who were performing in several towns in Bikol. “We had no [private] transportation. We took the public bus from town to town. Fr. Honti was so tired waiting for a bus to go to another town. He sat on a sidewalk while waiting, finally we agreed to hop in the bus even if it was full. He was seated on sacks of rice. He was very tired then, but never did he give up.

Indeed, Fr. Honti remained indefatigable. After his stroke in 1991, he went through a period of distancing himself from music and songwriting. Noticing that he did not have a CD player in his room, I asked him if he wanted one. He shook his head. I asked him if he wanted a small keyboard. He again shook his head. I insisted that JMM could easily get him a small keyboard for his room. He consistently refused my offer.

A few years later, there he was in our tiny JMM office with a sheaf of new compositions that he wanted encoded. The last years of his life, he had no qualms allowing me to correct his works, “Fr. this note clashes with the chord you assigned; perhaps you meant this note.” He would nod at every suggestion. And when I would finally play his new composition on the clavinova, he would laugh and cry at the same time.

The humble master songwriter had no qualms being taught and aided by his young apprentice.


Insistent Lover.

Third, Fr. Honti was an Insistent Lover.

Every few months, Paulino Pe, Fr. Honti’s former student at the Ateneo de Zamboanga in 1949, would give Fr. Eddie a gift check for a lauriat for twelve people at Peach Blossoms. Pina was our events coordinator. She would text Fr. Honti’s girlfriends: Temay, Larphy (whenever she was in town), Sr. Bubbles, Sr. Lulu, Tita Remy and a few of us Jesuits. Pina narrates: “kahit available lahat, kapag di ako puwede, sasabihin ni Fr. Honti, ‘No, no, no, no, no.” And so Pina would have to text everyone again and reschedule the dinner. That was Fr. Honti’s way of telling Pina how special she was to him.

Similarly, Risa Hontiveros-Baraquel texted me earlier today: “He baptized every one of our four children even after his stroke in 1991, joyfully baptizing them, then laboriously but devotedly signing their baptismal certificates.” At times, Fr. Honti was very insistent in doing things his way, but it was always to let others know how much he cared for them.

This afternoon I bumped into Sr. Bubbles at the LRT station. We started exchanging stories about Fr. Honti, wiping away our tears, as throngs of people passed us by. One day, Sr. Bubbles narrated, she received a call from Fr. Honti. “Imagine,” sabi ni Sr. Bubbles, “despite his condition, ang tapang niyang tumawag sa akin?” It turns out that Fr. Honti wanted her to visit him in LHS. As they met at the lobby, he grasped her arm and led her to his bedroom. “Hala, Fr. hindi ba bawal ako umakyat diyan?” But he was insistent. He showed her a picture of his during his younger years and asked her to scribble a dedication at the back where other friends had done so earlier.

The next day, she received a letter. And on the page were scribbled large letters in a child’s handwriting: “I love you, Fr. Honti.”

I encountered the insistent Fr. Honti many times. The last time was during the most recent homecoming in San Jose Seminary in November, 2007. As with many gatherings, I would sit beside him, serve him and slice his meat and vegetables for him. In the middle of the program, he rose from his chair. “Fr. Honti, are you going home?” “Yes,” he replied. How did you get here? Who will take you home?” He signaled that he was walking back to LHS. I told him that I was accompanying him. He signaled that I remain seated. Because I insisted he could not go home unless I chaperone him, he relented. After climbing the steps from the San Jose covered courts to our driveway, he motioned me to return to the party. He was worried that I would miss the program at the homecoming. As we reached the steps of Loyola House of Studies, he motioned me to take his umbrella. I told him it was only drizzling outside and that I did not need an umbrella. He refused to go up to his bedroom until I accepted his umbrella. Knowing he would not take no for an answer I took his umbrella and kissed him goodnight. He held me in his arms. If ever Fr. Honti was stubborn and insistent, it was always to let people know how much he cared for them. That night, somehow I knew that Fr. Honti would not remain with us much longer.


The Mystic’s Laughter and Suffering.

I know a good Jesuit homily consists of three points; however, permit me to add one last reflection on the mystic’s laughter. The saints speak of the beatific vision as an indistinguishable interwovenness of laughter and tears. Fr. Honti was constantly laughing and crying at the same moment. Whenever a choir would sing for him, he would laugh and cry at the same time. Whenever we told him how much we loved him, he would unabashedly laugh and cry simultaneously. Before Christmas I told him that Pia, his newscaster-niece, had invited me to preside over the Eucharist during their clan’s Christmas gathering and that I had told Pia: “Anything for Fr. Honti.” Fr. Honti laughed and cried. Before their clan Mass, I whispered to Fr. Honti that in order to make everyone especially happy that Christmas, I would preside and he would preach a one-word homily: “Alleluia.” He laughed and cried so hard.

I suppose only the mystics are able to see the infinite value of little acts of kindness. For Fr. Honti, little acts of affection and charity shown him overwhelmed him emotionally, as though our little deeds of kindness were the greatest acts of love.


His Person, a Song of Praise to God.

I last spoke to Fr. Honti the night before his massive stroke. During the reception at the Final Vows of Fr. Tony de Castro and Fr. Pedro Walpole, I served Fr. Honti. I brought him a plate of lechon and offered him one slice, and just one tiny slice. To my amazement, he refused. The next morning, January 4, 2008, Fr. Honti was found sprawled along the corridors here in LHS. He had suffered another stroke that left him comatose. He never woke-up.

While he has written so many memorable songs, his very person, is certainly the most sublime song he has offered to God. Gentle spirit, humble genius, insistent lover and mystic who laughed and cried constantly, Fr. Honti, we love you and together with you in heaven, we sing:

Ang puso koy’ nagpupuri, nagpupuri sa Panginoon
Nagagalak ang aking espiritu, sa ‘king Tagapagligtas

Friday, January 18, 2008

people of the philippines, panext and patapon...

Thanks to Jike for introducing the family to BrewRats last New Year. This is like the radio version of the late and great Strangebrew which kept my sanity way back in college. It's good to hear Tado, Erning and Ramon Bautista once again (uhh, asan si Rigor?). While philosophers float when they talk about profound thoughts, here's a part of my probable profanity. Yep, tao rin naman po.
Tama? Astig.

(show is aired from Monday to Thursday, from 9pm-12mn, at 99.5 fm band)

I got this from another Multiply user (with permission shempre) who got it from Tado's friendster.

Sabi nga nya, buti pa sila binabayaran para maging adik. Ok lang din naman sa min maging adik kahit di kami bayaran. We always listen to them while at work...It's alottafan!!!

brewsters: us all we, all listeners of brewrats show
brewho: boy
brewha: gurl
brewhay: bakla
brewjay: tomboy
brewrara: patol sa lahat
once again,once more: same same
ur radio is not defective: its juz us
tama: erning's punch line este word
wasak: lakas tama / wasted
marang: pro horny fruit
papaya: anti horny fruit
prepaid: it is a good sign for ligaw since you can pasa load
postpaid: bad sign, u need extra effort
marang festival: group sex
papaya salad: bible study
shoe size: organ equivalent
mayonnaisse: adventurous
panext: 18 and above / pwede na / its like borrowing a kinky magazine from ur classmate, u say "panext!"
people of the phils: minor / below 18
110v: troy montero / foreigner
220v: machete / native / pinoy
autovolt: christian vasquez / mixture of both 110 and 220volts
zona libre: pwdeng ligawan maski sinu
public skul: poor member of the society
private skul: laki sa aircon
ampon: wala lang
bribe: juz anything pleasurable / suhol
emo: ambot
punk: astig
hell: warm place / if ur bad ur going there and meet satan
heaven: cool place
brewraatatatataat: u need to say this after the drumroll
brewrat - badtrip
secrets: if yu want us to be friends share some secrets because friends share secrets

ADDITIONAL from tiaara (pa nex,wasak)

brewhihi: bisexual
g2g: girl to girl action
is your hands in your pocket?: some guy stuff .. lol
picking some pencils: style to make boso
giggles: pacute laugh
burn your letter: it means your letter sucks ! lol
poor beggars of edsa: urban society
illiterate: bobo / tanga / slow .. hahaha
tado and technology: imagine tado using the computer .. hehe
early bird callers: brewsters who usually call from 9pm to 930pm, they usually experience slamming on the phone .. hehe
kinky: sexy / my halong malisya
kawaii: cute japanese girls
sto. nino voice: small pretencious moderated voice .. hehe


Wednesday, January 16, 2008

si father honti (1923-2008)

Si P. Eduardo Hontiveros, SJ ang ama ng mga awiting pangmisa sa filipino, ang utak sa likod ng mga unang awiting pangmisa sa tagalog (Papuri Sa Diyos, Buksan ang ating Puso, Purihi't Pasalamatan) na sinundan ng mga relihiyosong musikero tulad nila P. Manoling Francisco, SJ at P. Arnel dC Aquino, SJ. Sa pagpasok ng Vatican II na nanghikayat na gawin ang misa sa wikang katutubo (bernakular), iniambag ni Fr. Honti ang mga awiting mas madaling sabayan at isapuso ng bawat pilipinong katoliko. Malamang sa hindi, likha niya yaong mga unang awiting pangmisa natutunan natin sa ating mga nakakatanda (sa kaso ko, kay mama at sa dalawa kong lola).

Ilan sa mga huling engkwentro ko kay Fr. Honti ay doon sa tribute concert para sa kanya noong 2001. Palagay ko, sya yaong matandang minsang natatanaw ko sa lhs pag bandang tanghalian na noong mga panahong nakikigamit ako ng kanilang library (yun ay sa mga panahong 2004-2005). Gayunpaman at bagaman di ako sigurado, pinasalamatan ko sya sa aking thesis (kasama ni fr. mano) dahil naging malaking inspirasyon ang kanyang musika.

Nakakalungkot malaman kay rinapie at kuya rai, sj na si Father Honti pala ay umuwi na sa piling ng ating Panginoon kahapon.

Salamat po Panginoon, sa pagpapala Ninyo sa amin ng katulad ni Fr. Honti.

Requiescat in pacem.

Sunday, January 13, 2008

Why Levinas?

Finally, here’s something to write.

I must say that 60% of my philosophical life is spent with and for Emmanuel Levinas. Yes, I never grew tired of him. But my sojourn with this philosopher is like a teeny-bopper love story that ended with a shotgun marriage. I started out starstruck, making an undergrad thesis about him as an effective proponent of postmodernity. Seeing the nuances of being responsible, I tried solving the problem of justice, however through a scapegoat – the Holy Scriptures (A Levinasian Hermeneutics of the Anawim). Realizing that I could have just played around despite my conviction that I have proven enough points, I felt the need to go into the depths of the paradigm in order to directly confront its immanent problems and perhaps also to escape from the grandstanding tendencies of intellectual snobs who earn their degrees by discursive necrophilia (taken from Dr. Hornedo – love for the dead i.e., penchance to resurrect dead issues) or complicating life by a.) deceitfully giving élan vital to tribal axioms, b.) synthesizing concepts with highfaluting names as if they are just mixing chemicals in a beaker, or c.) putting up an ontological-epistemological-psychological discourse to what a beauty title contender could just summarize in two words, “WORLD PEACE”.

I’m doing a Levinasian dissertation for the following reasons: 1. his philosophy deserves to be treated in the most human sense, 2. to flex his paradigm to pastoral, developmental and formation concerns (teaching, religious formation, good governance –philosophers, I believe, can also handle these concerns), 3. to humble transcendental treatments to a concept that is supposed to be lived, 4. to show that this is best applied by people who may not have even thought of it (ontology can never create saints). My previous works were all ambitious, but were detached from what people should understand about him. Now I have a simpler task, but I’d like to come up with foreboding ethical challenges.

There are many things that should be cleared up in the philosophy of Levinas, not because he’s wrong but because he did not write anything clear. (Sorry…) There is a big difference in the "flavor" of his written works and his interviews. Levinas’ writings are difficult; interviews on the other hand are easy. The text is by itself a misnomer since it is so open to different contexts. Levinas employed phenomenology as his mode of inquiry, but he kind of avoided Heidegger and so tried hard to avoid the ontological-talk. For trying so hard, he was not able to avoid the Heideggerian mode of talking. His readers tried to liberate him from this mode, setting him and his paradigm at the intersection of every imaginable philosophical topic. As a result, he is then taken as a post-structuralist, even postmodern.

I think the easiest way to get what Levinas means is to seek for his immediate and candid, all of these i think are evident in his interviews. When he "talks" of his philosophy, he’s being human.

I find a need to understand Levinas in the most human sense that is possible, and that is to go back to the corporeality of the ethical encounter. I find the profundity of Levinas’ concept of responsibility when he talks of it in the simplest way – the human side of Levinas shows the human side of his ethics. And I think that’s how Levinas would like us to understand the meaning of responsibility.

My task then in my dissertation is not to parrot Levinas and more definitely not his minions, not even to glorify and synthesize concepts – it is to bring out what is most human in his ethics, to extend what Levinas could have discussed when asked casually of what he truly means and how he’d like responsibility to be predicated and absorbed by mankind. In my work, I’d like to bring out the following, which I think are truly Levinasian: a.) the humble acceptance that an “authentic corporeal encounter” exists, b.) the primordially-organic character of goodness, c.) the possibility of saintliness, d.) the possibility of giving something and perhaps even of all despite having less and e.) the possibility for human solidarity of out of a common orientation to goodness.

Just that, and I think what I’d like to do already fits for a dissertation. Simple, but human – I didn’t dream of big things in the first place, I just want my work to be meaningful.

So help me God.