28 june 08 - mark this date!

It was on 28 June 2008

when I tried to conquer my being enrooted.

when I had my first sleepover.
when I had my first nightout (and had myself almost drunk)... in a skirt. (HAHA)

...when I've had all of these without having a hard time getting permission from my folks (because they are left with no other choice).

The feeling is liberating.

Well, paminsan lang naman. =)

GIRL!

okay, so this is a bobo-post. (hehe)

uy girl! kelan ba tayo magkakape?
girl, didja get my mail???
hay naku girl, umuwi na tayo.
miss you girl! mwah.

Call it subjective, but there's something that i find really irritating about that expression. While it takes over the usual terms of endearment among soul-sisters like bakla, lola, ate, friend and sis (and they're all okay to me) -- I find this new one kind of redundant and exaggerating (haha).

While I don't have to make any justification... basta lang, para talagang may mali. (Hehe)

the lilies of the field and the birds of the air

This beautiful prayer was the usual opening of our Levinas class last semester under Dr. Leovino Garcia.
Credits to Jonathan. =)

FROM THE LILIES AND THE BIRDS LET US LEARN

Father in Heaven, when the spring is come,

everything in nature returns in new freshness and beauty,

the lilies and the birds have lost nothing of their charm--oh,

that we also might return to the instruction of these teachers!

Ah, but if in the time that has elapsed we have lost our health,

would we might regain it by learning again

from the lilies of the field and the birds of the air!

the blogger's block

I've been trying to write about how things have been for the past few days, but I was not able to put up even a single entry. My thoughts revolved on the following:

- The joys and pains of writing a dissertation.
- The joys and pains of an MWF sked and of being a library bummer every TTh.
- How it is to lose and gain... and lose... and gain... and be scared of losing again... (haha!) a research hideout.
- The bothersome effect of the idea that age supersedes competence. (Enter Levinas' principle of separation and the father giving space to the child)
- Moving forward to a better task and the possibility of going back to a long lost dream.
- Staying friends and keeping in touch with other people you have learned to set free.
- How a sacrifice becomes a form of prayer, and how it works especially if you're praying for another person's intention.
- The fatal combination of lie-telling and boasting.

I'd really love to elaborate, but I just can't. I hope that the block will just remain here, since there are more important things to write. =)

Que est amour?

The annual French Film Festival as part of the celebration of the French Spring in Manila opened last night at the Shangri-la Mall Cineplex with the banner film "Un baiser, s'il vous plait?" (Shall we kiss?). For this year, the event's theme is on love, and screenings will be from 12 June to 22 June 2008.

first sem is for the dungeons!

An MWF of 9:00am to 6/9:00pm, with the first hour, and the last three hours to be spent for teaching. Then Saturday's for tumbling, with the morning for French and afternoon for a major subject.

I'll be having big breaks in between and that only sends me back to my favorite hideouts. This leaves me with no choice -- the sem should be productive.

Ready, game, FIGHT!

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POST-SCRIPTS (chikaminute!)
- Rev. Fr. Rolando dela Rosa, OP had just been installed as the 95th Rector of the University of Santo Tomas, after the Misa de Apertura held early this morning. Let us pray for the success of his term.
- Two good friends had just been ordained to the priesthood. Let's pray for them. =)
- AB Philo alumni Tracy, Imon, Paeng and Joel (uhhh, who else) are adding up to the Gradschool Family. Masaya na naman tayo nito! =)

doodles

Written sometime in 2006 (or 2007), found these on a dirty paper during a general room cleaning.
How could I have written these?
Ang ganda ah! (hahaha, pinuri ang sarili) Ambigat, haha.
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Yaong pigil sa tabil ng dilang madulas ang siyang magpapalayo sa aking kalooban. Bagaman nais kitang sigawan, dasal ko pa ring naiintindihan mo ang tahimik kong pakiusap.

Kung may paraan lang sanang maghilom – gagawin ko iyon kahit na mag-isa. Ngunit di kita kayang iwaksi.

Marahil isa ka nga sa mga pinakamabuti ngunit pinakamahirap liripin. Batid kong dapat kang panindigan, ngunit ang bigat mong dalhin. Sinubukan ko, pero tila yata nabigo. Sumugal ako, pero mahina akong makipaglaro – nang buong puso at lakas, ngunit mahina pa rin.

Kung maari lang sanang huwag magkubli sa bawat panahong pinipilit kong lumimot at magkunwari. Ngunit kailangang maging tapat, aanihim mo akong lito at wasak? Sa pagiging tapat, hindi ko rin pwede masabi ang lahat.

Alam kong may paraan ka upang malaman ang mga nais sabihin kahit ng aking mga mat Unawain mo sana ang di ko mapaliwanag na pagdurusa. Alam mo yun, alam ko. Di lang siguro natin (pwedeng) masabi.
Patawad sa katahimikan, patawad sa paglisan.

patay tayo dyan!

The Binalbagan Scandal (a family video)
15 May 2008
Binalbagan, Negros Occidental

Congrats to kuya ron for courageously uploading THE video. Lagot ka kay tekla. Hahaha.